I have decided

I may be writing this out of frustration due to the stupid road blocks tonight. But I am even more convinced that I need to leave this stupid country. I don't care what you say about the grass is greener on the other side.

Yes, it may not be greener. I may be worse off by migrating somewhere else. But seriously, with the direction our nation is heading, I seriously don't want to be here 10 years from now. Don't tell me to stay and fight. Don't tell me there's hope. Don't tell me change can happen. These may happen. But I do not care if they happen or do not. I don't want to be here to see the nation crumble or rise to glory. I seriously don't give a crap anymore.

I once thought coming back to Malaysia was a good decision. I was at peace with the decision when I graduated. But not anymore. I've turned into this bitter old hag that turns to the newspaper everytime I need comic relief.

I guess my greatest regret now would be my decision to come back here.

So don't tell me to stay on and fight. Don't ask me to pray for the nation. Don't tell me the nation needs me. Don't tell me you're better off in Malaysia. Seriously, everytime I talk to someone working overseas who says they are considering coming back, I ask them a big WHY. But perhaps you will never believe me. What I say may be something you do not agree with. Fine with me.

How about you just come back to Malaysia for a couple of years? Come and have a taste for yourself. Then decide if you really want to stay in Malaysia for good. Maybe you do, maybe you do not. Maybe you like the vibrant town and the good food.

I'm willing to give up good food. I'm willing to pay more taxes. I'm willing to start from scratch. I'm willing to take the risk. I need to migrate.

Time and time again I'm reminded of the need to relocate somewhere. Today just pushed it way overboard. Now just need to fill up the application forms and submit it. I seriously don't give a crap anymore.