My thoughts

In the past, during my student days, everytime I fly and they play something introducing Malaysia (be it Malaysia Airlines or Singapore Airlines), I secretly feel proud of my country. It has so much to offer and I was dying to come back. I wanted to come back so badly, I missed being in Malaysia.

But now? I'm ashamed to admit I'm a Malaysian. I sometimes wish I could say I'm a Singaporean instead. Yesterday on the flight back from Shanghai, the same video played again. Promoting Malaysia and stuff. And instead of beaming with pride, I was filled with disgust, embarrassment and bitterness. I couldn't bear to watch it, unplugged my speakers and stuffed my ear with songs from my phone. It's like a reflex.

I really don't know how long more I have to stay in this country. I'm really hoping to get out. Go somewhere less stupid. My ancestors migrated from China here in search of a better life. And we did get to enjoy a better life. Now it's my turn to do something for a better life for my kids.

Even AirAsia is moving their corporate HQ to Jakarta. Malaysia, I really don't know what to say.